Grown Up

(Written 06-01-2014)
(edging on TMI in this post)

Today is the first day of June.  Today I've been married to the man of my dreams and my best friend for three weeks exactly <3 Today I'm feeling all grown up.

I'm married.  That's grown up like.  As husband and wife we share a bank account and pieces of plastic. That's grown up like.  I have a job, my husband has a job. My husband and I got up early today for his job, and both of us will be out late for our jobs.  That's grown up like.  We have a beautiful place to live (a bike ride away from the beach) ;) which means we have rent and other bills to pay.  That's definitely grown up like. We have an adorable puppy to take care of that is still in training at eight months old.  That's grown up like.

What really makes me feel grown up is attempting to create a life with my best friend.  Trying to combine our DNA's in to one living being. Wow. That would be amazing!

I found the pro's and con's list that we made up.  We rated everything after we thought it up too.  Most of it is in my shorthand...

Pro's:
New friends.  Fulfilling love.  Fun (current) activities.  Cute baby.  New (kid) activities.  becoming a parent / teacher, satisfaction / pride, teaching.  Pictures.  Purpose.  Good for our puppy.  Strengthen us.  Motivation to be better.  School activities.  Entertainment. Boob job.  Happy family.  Starting our family unit.  Buying things for the kid.  Cuddles.  Feeding.  Young parents.  Retire from parenting earlier.  Health benefits.  Con's off set.  Baby book / build a bear.  Want / need.  We can do it.  Most Con's don't start till birth.  Nest.  Medicaid.  Christmas / holidays will be better.  Watching the other be a parent.  Tax credit.
Pro's rating total: 171

Con's:
Childbirth.  Body changes.  Free time change.  Finances: Housing, food, school, extra activities, living supplies, a lower income, misc.  Spontaneity.  Family opinions.  Babysitters.  Change relationship.  Pregnancy.  More complicated wedding (no longer a problem, but it was when we wrote this.)  Pains: annoying, smell (diapers), lack of sleep, Dr. trips, feeding, messy house.  More dishes.  Six months of my husband.  Postpartum.  Less flexible.  Done.
Con's rating total: 104

We decided after making this that we both really want to have a child someday.  Our lives would be unfulfilled if that never happened.  So having a child is going to happen between us someday.  Why not now?

Oh! I want a baby so bad!!!