Not fair :(

(Written June 13th, 2014)

I know so many people who have oopsie babies or just once babies.  I'm trying and can't get knocked up!?!?!?  This is stupid.  I got a negative test this morning, my hubby didn't want to wait till father's day so he kinda twisted my arm till I gave in lol (it wasn't too hard to convince me.)

My body is so mean, playin tricks on me.   Last month my period was almost a week late, this month I get odd cravings and dizziness.  Maybe I'm just wanting it so much it's getting to my head? It makes me so sad to see a negative test every month.

At the same time, during this testing time each month I'm hoping and wishing the test is positive, that's all I want.... or it could be negative, maybe that's better, I don't know that I'm ready for a baby!?!?!  Even with that in mind, it's not relieving to have a negative test, IT'S SO VERY AGGRAVATING!!!!  :(