Broken

(written July 2nd, 2014)

I feel as though the egg is being fertilized.  We are doing everything "right:"  I'm taking prenatal vitamins, we're doing "the baby dance" during my ovulation period, I'm allowing "settling time" after "the baby dance," we're keeping track of everything....  So the egg is being fertilized.  Plus my pms is much worse than I'm used to, which also helps me believe the process is starting.  However, my periods keep coming.  Which leads me to feeling as though I'm broken.  As though my body is not allowing the egg to attach itself to my utary wall.  *sigh* I want a baby so bad!


A new thought has come to us though:  Seeing as I have been marketing the hubby's business out of state, people out of state are booking, and I would like to travel with hubby to these new places with untold adventures....  Maybe it would be okay not to have a baby right away.  NOT SAYING WE NO LONGER WANT A BABY.  Just that we'll let nature take it's course.  No more birth control or testing obsessively for ovulation and pregnancy.  Still taking vitamins and "baby dancing" unprotected.

We want a baby, and would love for that to happen soon.  We are just going to let nature lead the way.