Change

I'm so excited to have a little one on the way!!!   Yet at the same time I'm so incredibly nervous about all the changes that are going to happen...   My life will never be the same from this moment on.

My body,
My marriage,
My relationships,
My living space,
My activities,
My whole outlook on life!

There's this little nagging voice in the back of my mind "Are you going to make a good parent?"

My body is going to change, everything is going to swell.  My boobs are going to get big, full of milk.  They're going to continue being so sensitively tender.  My feet are going to swell, my hands are going to swell, my butt is going to swell.  Oh I almost forgot: my abdomen is going to swell with child!!!!  I'm going to get fat.  Or at least feel fat.

My marriage is going to change.  We will no longer be able to just be at home.  We will have to wear clothes, listen to crying, smelling diapers.  My poor husband is going to have to be so patient with me being grumpy and irritable with everything throughout pregnancy and for the first year until we can sleep through the night.

All of my relationships will change.  I'm sure eventually most of my friends will only be people who have kids my child's age so that they can be entertained while we have "adult time."  Or I will have to hire a babysitter every time I want to do something... lol, right.  Everyone will get annoyed with me showing of kid pics, talking incessantly about my child.  That little being my husband and I created is going to be my life!  If you're not interested in hearing about it, I suggest you start saying your goodbyes now.

Living arrangements are going to change.  Being lazy about the dishes isn't going to be a option any more.  Picking up crap off the floor and keeping it off the floor is going to be a challenge (especially for my husband! <3) All that stuff that we need to keep cleaned up in going to be replaced with noisemakers and other toys, I'm sure.  We're going to have to go around and baby proof the house, locking up cupboards, covering outlets, moving equipment up and out of reach.  What to do about drawers and shoes...

We'll get to do so many new things!  Our activities will certainly change.  Only things baby can do unless we have a baby sitter.  ...

Life is going to change so very very much! It's worth it... right?

It's worth all the change to have a little snuggling, loving, sweet, adorable, bundle of joy.   To have a child that will love me and and eventually help with chores, open up new adventures, bring a new perspective to things, learn and grow with.  It's worth it.  Yeah,  all this change will definitely be worth the reward.

I can't wait to meet you, my child <3