The most amazing man

My husband <3

Yesterday was a very hard, emotional day for me.  The hormones are really getting the best of me.  I was irrational, crying, irritable, frustrated and overwhelmed.  On several occasions I got really upset with this man.  I felt he was pushing me to do things I had to do but wasn't ready to (like find a doctor, make calls, important stuff that I was putting off because I couldn't stop crying.)  One moment I felt like he was being bossy and nagging, the next moment it seemed like he was completely ignoring me.

I feel like picking a doctor is such a daunting task, choosing the right one, finding someone close, picking a birthing option that the doctor will agree to.  I wanted to just go to an office and talk to someone, anyone.  Most of the local ones I've found online are closed.  My reaction to all this was to cry.  This frustrated my husband- he wanted to get things done for the state so I wouldn't lose the state's help.  I didn't feel like I could do it in one day- make my mind up and choose a doctor.

I was making muffins and he came into the kitchen while I was doing something else.  He wasted a muffin by ruining the last of the batter, putting it in the sink and filling it with water.  Then he was trying to ice the muffins I had just pulled out of the oven while they were still too hot.  "He was only trying to help!"

I wanted to go swimming.  The dog had to go out first.  We were both trying to get the dog out when the dog wrapped the leash around us.  I was trying to get it untangled behind my hubby, and he pushes me back so I fall into the closet, almost breaking the door.  I was so pissed.  I left for the pool, didn't wait for the husband, or for the dog to be put away.  I just grabbed my stuff and left.   "He didn't realize the dog had wrapped around us and was just trying to open the door."

Exercise seemed to help tame my mood.  After an hour of swimming alone my hubby came to join me.  He gave me time to cool off (which I didn't want, but obviously needed.)  We made up or I was more level headed, and we had fun.  I apologized.  After we went to the store and when we got back home I took a half hour nap, I was absolutely exhausted from the emotional roller coaster of the day.

I woke up to find that my man had spent the time I filled with napping on cleaning our kitchen and dining room.  When I woke up he started making dinner for us: broccoli and carrots, homemade mac cheese, and marinated, breaded chicken tender pieces with some chocolate almond milk.

Despite everything I put him through yesterday, he had patience with me, he stuck with me, he still loved me enough to clean up and make dinner.  (Yes, I'm crying right now because My Husband is just so damn sweet & perfectly just what I need.)  He is the most amazing man.  My amazing man.  I love him so so so very very much, words cannot begin to describe my love for him.  He is going to make an awesome father!   I can't wait to see him holding our baby <3