Eight Weeks Five Days!

Today was a big day!

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In the car, on the way to the Dr's

Baby,

Today Daddy and I got to see you for the first time!!!  We were very excited.  Monday was the eight week mark, the last week of the second month.  Today I am eight weeks and five days into this pregnancy and I still can't wrap my mind around it being real, about you being there.

When we woke up this morning the first thing your dad said to me was "We get to see our baby today!"  In that high, squeely voice he does when he's excited.

We couldn't wait to get to the doctor's office. (Yet, we really didn't want to go out either.  It's been raining and thundering all day.  When the time came for us to get out the door it was absolutely poring!  Right now your dad and I live in a condo, second floor.  We had to run down the stairs in the rain to the parking lot where the car is.)

Once we got into the doctor's office we did the routine check ups: urine sample, blood pressure, and weight.  Of course you know your dad and I, very impatiently waiting for the doctor to come in and do the ultra sound. Last thing to do on the list.  The machine was in the room the whole time, on, just staring at us, mocking our wait time.

Nurse checking my blood pressure

Finally, the doctor came in! It was awkward at first, I was half naked and really done with talking and asking or answering questions (that your dad had more of than me.)  I was really ready to see you for the first time!  (... With the slight fear in the back of my head that you weren't really there, that there was something wrong with me...)  Then the doctor grabbed the ultra sound "wand," it already had a condom on it and she put cold, goopy lube on it.  She put the "wand" inside me and we all turned to the screen.

Dr looking at the ultra sound screen
Baby, you look like a jelly bean!

Your dad and I were mesmerized by what she was showing us.  We saw your little heart beating, it was a quick flickering on the screen.  She poked around to see if you were the only one in there: yup, only you!  Then you were measured: you were 19.9 mm long.  She printed a screen shot for us and it was over.  It didn't last long enough, I loved that I could see your little heart beating!

(no sound)

The ultra sound was over.  The appointment finished.  Just needed to get my pants back on and make the next appointment.  Only, I couldn't stop crying.  It started when we first saw you on the screen, the tears swelled up and started falling in big droplets.  I didn't stop crying until we were in the grocery store, half way done with our errands.

Mama's so happy to see you!

Your dad thought this made me very photogenic.

I made your dad set up the next appointment because I couldn't talk.  Baby, this has been the most amazing day!  To see you growing, healthy in my belly, there's not words for how amazing this is.  And no words to tell you how terrifying this is, all the changes we will make for you, everything we will go through together.  Baby, you are going to change my life, your dad's life, your grandparent's lives, everyone that has the pleasure of meeting you will have their life changed in some way from meeting you.

 Though your dad's and my life will be impacted the most.  You are going to be the very most important person in our lives for years to come.  We love you already and we only have an ultra sound picture of you.  We haven't even met you yet.  Yet you are the drive behind our decisions and choices today.  We are so excited to bring you into our life, welcome you to our world!  (Hey, it's the only one we've got.)

We love you baby!  I can't wait to see you again during the next ultra sound and I'm sure your daddy feels the same way.

I love you, Baby!
~ Your Mama

Baby's first picture!
You look like a jelly bean.

(Photos & video by Timothy Capp)